Confuse.. Celebrating.. Mom's heartache

I don't know why I am having some sort of 'confuse' feelings right now.. I don't think anyone will understand what I mean.. ;-p

Tomorrow I am flying back home to KL and my heart still wanted to be here.. But I have to go back because life goes on.. That's what I call 'confuse'.. want to go.. don't want to go.. but have to go.. o.O

Have not done with my packing (As usual last minutes.. ;-p).

At this point..I am so sad that I did not managed to visit 1 of my uncle (My dad's brother).. My mum got a call from my dad (Outstation at the moment) asking us to visit my uncle coz he was ill.. *Sigh* I should have visit him earlier.. Now I feel bad!! Their house was very near to ours but I still did not go and visit him..

Usually I will visit him during my trip to KK.. But this time around I am totally busy..

Note for Cherish Tulip : If you are reading this.. I am so sorry that I did not managed to go and do what ever I should do T_T... I hope I can do that next month (Yess.. I am coming down to KK again next month ^_^)


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I wanted to post something for my oversea sister to view.. ^_^



Yesterday night celebrating my 2nd sister birthday.. ho..ho..ho.. sis.. you are following my age very near ha?? ;-p (No candle.. Percaya tak?? Kedai kehabisan lilin.. Jeez!! Bakery Giant Putatan lah tu)



This was an advance birthday for my sister.. I wanted to gather my family while I am here.. So I purposely Buy a cake for her and having dinner at her house.. ;-p.



Trying to take family photo here.. But ada tikus pula mencuri makan during the photo session.. *Sigh*..

This time around.. I told my sister we cook something really really traditional.. I desperately craving for all the traditional food.. include the 'sagu AKA abuyat'.. ;-p (But Not enough time to go and buy.. *tapun!*)



Suen.. For you.. ^_^



Some of the food.. Auchhh.. I am hungry again..

Something funny yet nice, I don't know why some people (In Sabah) love to put all the food all around the cake when taking picture! Lol.. I notice this been going on since I was small and not only on my family but other family and friends too.. ^_^.



What ever it is.. That was a very sentimental value moment for me.. I am proud of where I belongs..

Wanted to tell a story about my boy that night.. HE DRANK A CARBONATED DRINK for 1st time that night.. Orange F&N.. I tot it was a happy day so let him try some.. Before we step out from my sis home.. He managed to grab another cup from the table.. o.O

That night around 2.30am.. He was attacked by Asthma.. He start to cry and I don't want that to happen. I bring him out from our room and let him watch his fav Astro Channel 613.. He was complaining his foot pain too (But I don't bother.. I care more on his asthma..)

I didn't sleep well last night (So do my mom.. She can't sleep by looking at me handling my boy.. I love my mom.. She never slept if we fell sick during our childhood too.. I remember all that moment well).

I don't know when did I 'knock off'.. What I know my boy was crying wanted to watch TV outside but he can't walk.. o.O!!!

I tot it was just a gimmick of him.. I don't bother him and I even make some testing towards him. I carry him outside and I went back to our room and I shout.. Wow Transformer Toys!!! I saw him struggling trying to walk and finally he fell.. I regretted to do the 'test' on him.. T_T

Make it short.. I have to 'May-dey' all my girlfrens to cancel our lunch date because I need to bring my boy to the Clinic.

Note to MK, WD and Bella : I am so sorry to cancel our lunch date today.. will make it next month k..

Note to Salmah A: I am so sorry can't make it this time.. I really2 wanted to see you too.. T_T.. Try my best nxt time k..



God's plan.. I met my long lost friend.. She was 1 of the nurse here at Polyclinic.. ^_^.



Doc check my boy's lung.. Clear! Thank God.. but his foot definitely got a bit swollen.. If the pain did not goes off at least by tomorrow.. Doc advice to go for 'X-ray'.... *Sigh*

Now.. I am thinking.. how on earth am I going to carry my 24kg son on the airport tomorrow.. T_T.. I hope they provide a wheel chair..

Ok.. I need to continue to pack.. But I am sleepy.. I think I want to sleep and continue my packing early morning.. I have not enough sleep...

Zzzzzz